it doesn't matter how long you are gone, when you leave, you will notice once you return that some of your life has passed you and left a tiny void where you once were. there will be events you missed and maybe a birthday or two; maybe a bill left unpaid. there is a small blip that occurs of where you once were and then weren't for a beat or two, even if you maintained a contact with your life as it is. when you return it will not be quite as you left it. it is just the way it is. your life, as you know it, has gone somewhat untended and will show the effects of the lack of attention. like a garden that requires constant cultivation when we go we don't arrive back the same person as when we left. our experiences shift our perspective and we view our small plot of life with different eyes upon our return.
i am returning to mine with a sigh. there is, of course, the necessary to be done. there is laundry that accumulated; that ring formed in the toilet bowl and the floor needs sweeping. a small list of the miscellaneous and sundry that are my assumed responsibility await me. i've got to return to my job search and/or career exploration with renewed vigor.
this status quo needs to change.
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